February 2012
9 posts
February 10, 2012
Masakit.
February 9, 2012
I’m exhausted from adjusting to the preference and mindset of others. I wish my mind may drown to the pit of nothingness right now just so it may rest.
February 6, 2012
I don’t want to be told the word “self-pity” anymore nor “rationalization.” I just want to feel according to how I feel at this moment without anyone telling me it’s invalid or unnecessary, or immature.
February 3, 2012
Who am I?
The one question that puts me into an emotional blunder every single time.
Who am I?
Which of me to choose? I am capable of being one to another, another to another. I can be a multitude of me, even opposing me’s, at a particular time. Which means to say thay, I can be not me in other instances.
Who am I?
Not even I am legit to answer such a complex interrogation. I do not...
February 3, 2012
I despise you.
I despise your act.
I despise your word.
I despise your thought.
I despise you even more because you can get away with it.
But most of all,
I despise you because I despise what is me in you.
January 2012
6 posts
January 26, 2012
It has been a while…
My being sick had to make me refrain from using my laptop for a while which was immediately followed by my professors bombarding readings, etc.
Anyway,
Belated Happy Chinese New Year!
ika-20 ng Enero, 2012
Maraming maaaring mangyari sa loob ng isang taon. Sari-saring ideya, sari-saring emusyon, sari-saring salita ang mahahagilap kahit sa loob lamang ng isang araw. Ilang buhay ang pinagmamasdan at nagmamasid sa iyo kada minuto. Iba’t-ibang kuwento ang nag-aabang na mapakinggan mo.
January 4, 2012
I was looking through my old photobucket account. I could hardly remember the last time I checked because I lost my password for the longest time. When I finally retrieved my password. I found these:
Photobucket granted me a trip back to old school. It’s amusing to see these after a long time. I mean, look, these may be the most concrete thing I can hold from those days that passed....
January 3, 2012
Just a little something I was working on a while ago. I’ve been wanting to make one for months but academics won’t permit. Realizing school will be back shortly (which will cause another long overdue), I decided to cram. Results? Not that much big of a deal, but I hope it’ll surprise him. I made it with extra extra love (seriously, Abby? “extra extra love”?).
January 2, 2012
Dropped-by Taft yesterday for two reasons: to pay tuition fee and to gussy up my dorm. My classes start on the 5th. I have lots of plans this year (the things you think of when you realize you have just about a year left for schooling). Better get everything settled as “early” as possible. I am off for a fresh start.
December 2011
2 posts
A Rant about Making Someone Feel Better
A Rant about Making Someone Feel Better
I am not sure when self-pitying became a hobby. I have been doing that a lot lately - lately, in a more detailed sense does not only mean days, or weeks, or months. Yes, I am pretty much disturbed like that. But that is not my point tonight, is it? What I want to give notice is one of the lamest feel better words another person commonly says to a person who...
October 2011
4 posts
1 tag
In every course I am enrolled in, I am obliged to...
Idle
Have you ever had the feeling of waking up, but not wanting to. It is as if it is desirable to neither be asleep nor awake. Merely desiring that feeling of “in between” - falling but flying, drowning but floating, feeling but unfeeling. It is a sensation of both outside and the inside when your own dimension coexists with reality. What great pleasure is to be!
Yet, you cannot stay forever. You...
September 2011
2 posts
Pagsangguni sa Pahina ng Buhay
Kasalukuyang nasa ikalima ng labimpitong pahinang babasahin.
Basa, isip, salungguhit, kabisahin.
Basa, isip, salungguhit, kabisahin.
Ililipat na ang pahina.
Hanggang saan ang aabutin ng nanatiling alaala?
Basa, isip, salungguhit, kabisahin.
Basa, isip, salungguhit, kabisahin.
Karagdagang ideya, bagong pagmumuok. Ilipat na ang pahina.
Hanggang kailan ang aabutin ang nananitiling...
Blabbering
Not being able to sleep is nothing new. I get it occasionally. No, I am not an insomniac. It’s different in terms that I cannot explain. But I do consider it as “something like insomnia.” (Amusing how I understood what Haruki Murakami was trying to elucidate in The Elephant Vanishes.) Well, at least, I think I do. Have you ever been in between can sleep and can’t? I hate...
August 2011
6 posts
My reblog-active account:
http://www.baconcheeseburger.tumblr.com/
Kasalungat at Kasingkahulugan
Tumbalik man kung iisipin, ngunit, kinakailangan ang eksistensya ng kalungkutan para magkaroon ng mas malalim na pakaunawa, para magkaroon ng mas malalim na kasiyahan.
Different encounters, different points of view.
Never is it that two persons understand perfectly unless they experienced everything exactly.
May 2011
1 post
How to Talk to Your Father
(A version inspired by Lorrie Moore’s How to Talk to Your Mother)
2011 – It is five-thirty in the morning. You woke up, hardly noticing that his voice did. Your towel is waiting inside the bathroom. You dress up. You prepare for school. After a few minutes of restlessly going around the house, you are all set to endure another day journeying from Antipolo to Taft Avenue, while he stays by...
February 2011
3 posts
1 tag
Pagtakbo ng Oras sa Mundo ng Mangsig-Irog
Sabi ng mga matatatanda, ang pag-ibig daw ang pinakamalakas na puwersa sa mundo. Kaya nitong gawin ang anumang bagay na inakalang imposible. Kahit oras, kayang patigilin ng pag-ibig.
Sa ating pagsulat tungkol sa mga panahong hindi natin malilimutan habang magkatabi, tila unti-unting bumabagal ang takbo ng oras. Tila bumabagal ang kilos ng lahat ng tao sa paligid habang patuloy tayo sa paggunita at...
December 2010
4 posts
November 2010
2 posts
She
I woke up, looked at you - beautiful as ever.
Watching you sleep, I smiled for you are at peace.
You are love.
You are home.
You are the very reason of my existence.
Soon enough I will long for you, even more than I already do.
Even more than I could ever imagine.